Hello Sillybeans: Thank you for bringing your concern here to PC. I see this is your first post. Welcome to Psych Central. Based on what you wrote, it sounds as though the Survivors of Abuse forum, here on PC, may be an additional forum that will be of interest. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/survivors-of-abuse/

You didn't go into specifics in your post (not that you should. That is your choice, of course.) However, from what you wrote, it sounds as though you may have been the victim of sexual assault. So here's a link to an article, from Psych Central's archives, on the subject of PTSD plus links to 3 articles on the subject of healing from sexual assault in particular & 1 on healing from trauma in general:

Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) | Psych Central

Healing from Sexual Assault

Building Empowerment After Sexual Assault

Coping with Flashbacks

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/savvy...g-from-trauma/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.