I sympathise, having avoided having a therapist of the gender I'm attracted to.

For me, it would have taken the therapy down an unnecessarily distracting route.

But I've learned from this forum that love and attraction for a t can be useful. I can see now that, in some cases, the environment is a genuinely safe space to try things out / act things out / express strong emotions of all kinds. It sounds like you have that with your t.

I wouldn't worry about putting a label on anything. As Sussanahsays mentioned, keep an eye on not demonising any particular ways of being.

Just try it. You might like it! If not, try something else!