I am hospitalized this summer for strong suicidal urges. While there, they tell me they don’t know if I’m bipolar but I might just be suffering from a strong case of PTSD from childhood trauma. Not married to the disorder so I’m like that’s fine this would explain why I’m still feeling like crap. So do they prescribe other treatments?No. instead they give me some kind of weird meditation to do. So I ultimately decided my medication isn’t working, they diagnosed me wrong and I get off of it. Now my therapist has been nagging me for last two months to get back on my medication. I go see my psychiatrist today and they’re like you’re in a mixed episode and it’s going to become a full-blown episode if you don’t get back on your medication. Well wtf Can They please make up their mind. why would I take medication for something I don’t have? It’s not like the medication isn’t harmful because it is and if I don’t have Bipolar disorder then it’s not going to work for me so why the heck do they keep putting me back on it. I go off the medication because they tell me I don’t have it and now they’re telling me I need to go back on my medication. I hate mental health professionals so much! Does anyone else have this issue? It’s like they are more focused on giving me a diagnosis than helping me. I don’t care what I have I just want to feel OK. God I hate people. I hope others are having a better day than I did. I’m just feeling so enraged right now like this is my life stop messing with me and just f*cking help me😡