I see my pdoc on Friday. I have thought long and hard about short-term disability and feel it is inevitable now. I've tried at work. I really have tried. But I just can't do it anymore. I can't deal with the anxiety. My concentration is terrible, I can't meet deadlines, I cry when things go wrong, I get terrible anxiety working with the public, and I wake up with a horrible feeling of dread each day. Negativity consumes me. This has played a big role in my depression for such a long period of time, and it's really holding me back from getting better. I really hope my pdoc supports my decision to go out on disability short-term. I think she will. I hope she will. This causing anxiety on top of anxiety.

Hugs to all out there who are in need.