I’m sorry your getting mixed information and meds on and off.

Diagnosing BP is not something that is one size fits all.

It’s often trial and error when it comes to meds.

It can be difficult if it’s ptsd or BP ... but right now you should just focus on treating the symptoms that are making life so miserable.

So Pdoc start people on a medication to see if it helps. “ most “ psych meds take 6-8 weeks to see if they will truly help, if after a decent length of time it’s not helping we’ll them it’s time to
Try another. It can take a lot of time to find a medication that works and doesn’t have side effects.

Sometimes it can months to a year or more for a Pdoc to really watch for patterns and make a final diagnosis.

I think it really would benefit you to see a Therapist ... you need to process how your feeling, you can work on any traumas in your life. Trust me there is more coping skills to learn than meditation and a Therapist can help you learn them.

Focus on committing to a medication and learn coping skills and take a deep breath it takes time to sort everything out