Well, finally got the courage to watch Joker. I was and am a big Heath Ledger fan and just had to see for myself what this Joaqin Phoenix hype was all about. I must say, overall, I thought the film was mediocre, at best. Not really sure exactly what type of mental illnes that was supposed to be--certainly not any Axis 1 diagnosis, that's for sure. Maybe some totally bizarre Axis 2 stuff? Maybe just Really Violent Guy Who Laughs A Lot. All in all, I wasn't very impressed. Also, I am sick and tired of Hollywood's continual glorification of nicotine addiction. Disgusting. Get with the 21st century, people!!!!

Have settled into a thing where I sleep about 7 hours a day in total, which is obviously a huge improvement. Guess I will probably be staying on the Depakote for awhile. That's fine. I'm happy to do whatever will help me, including Clozaril.

I would like to begin being a bit productive again. Writing. Working on this book that is so important to me. But I have been sort of sick for so long, it is hard to get back in the swing of things. Maybe tomorrow.

Love to all!!!!

Whatever and Moose--I am also in a financial straightjacket. It is very difficult. I really do not have enough food, much of the time. But at least I have a place to sleep. Sending you support and strength. I do like the idea of selling whatever you can sell to raise some cash. Clothes, bikes, toys, anything you don't have to have. I hope things get better soon!!!!