**Might be a bit triggery if you had problems with a baby**

I nearly died. dont want to go into detail ive been flashing back enough to day already but yeah, v hard time, illness called pre-eclampsia (very high blood pressure&kidneys start to fail) coupled with being induced and a 10pound6 baby didnt help, i was in complete terror before they admitted me to hospital, and im pretty sure its not depression because ive been depressed before, and the symptons (although there are small similarities) are different i should know if i have it or not in a week (18th feb) so i will post about the 19th cuz my fiancee is taking me out for a valentines meal that night. how is PTSD treated? and does it often take over your life? I cant go out without my partner very well, but im trying really hard and i just started a course with a door-to-door taxi, so i can just about do that because i know people on it already. Ive got lots of support so im feeling kinda lucky, but my partner sometimes just doesnt understand. like when you cant do anything without worrying about a fatal or damaging accident, or you check everything constantly (not in an OCD way) and are constantly on edge.