giddykitty I've been through over 15 therapists most of them too squeamish and squishy to help me. My current one is okay when I'm healthy and doesn't know how to help when things are bad. I've learned to stick to terms and not go into details. Honestly it helps to know I'm too sick. I'm able to pretend well. The thing that helped me the most is having a therapist that wasn't squeamish and I could write to. it took me a year and a psychotic break to trust her. Keep trying to find someone that you click with well enough that they can help.