I’m curious, you tagged your post as death anxiety, so have you begun to fear or agonize about your own mortality as result of theses losses? I went through a really bad spell of death anxiety about 5 years ago, but I don’t remember it having any specific triggers. I had to have my cat put down a little less than two years ago so I know the pain losing a pet can cause. I was fine until the vet assistant took her from me then I started blubbering like a baby.