hmmmm... I can see both sides of the equation here... don't be upset with me, but you may not like my answer...

i think that (from experience) it is up to us to take measures to to care for ourselves. I know i often put myself in a situation where i want to be cared for, but won't let anyone near me. S0 they stop trying. T can't run after you - she's got a lot on her plate. She did check in on you and yo said you wouldn't be there =( so really there is no more she can do. She probably finally read your email...

You can certainly be upset (i would too) but know that it is your choice and you and she both acted from where you are each at and did what you each think is best. Try to find in you where you can care for yourself and see that you have to meet her half way?

I do know how much pain this causes - really, i've done it to myself more times than i can count. Only you can get yourself to her. =( But now what is done is done... see if you can "hold on to her" for the week and be ready to move forward when she returns.

((((((((sincere hugs)))))))))) kiya