I am coping better at this moment that I was earlier today but in general I'm not coping well at the moment. When I get frustrated it jumps from 0 to 60 in a second and then .

I am visiting friends this evening and these friends are currently a source of a lot of stress. I feel anxious that I might snap and say how I'm really feeling. I feel extremely alone and the only way I can cope a lot of the time is - I think - deliberately trying to dissociate. I pretend I'm not here, pretend I don't exist, blank everything out, try to be nothing. I don't know if that's dissociating.