Hi Laura355. I'm very sorry you're struggling, but glad that you joined.
I have CPTSD, and depression (though the latter has improved hugely since joining PC).
Regarding the effects of trauma, I'm triggered easily in the workplace, and can go from 0 to 10 in a matter of seconds. And from there to wanting to end it all, sadly. The trapped feeling I get in the workplace mirrors my childhood, and aggressive bosses are still very tough for me to deal with.
Elsewhere in my life, I have been able to improve. A lot of that is thanks to the people I've met through PC.
You're not alone!