Thanks Rick,

I will think about going back to AA. I have gone a fair bit in the past year or so and like it overall but started to feel like I dont belong if I keep failing. No one has ever said that its just a feeling I have.

We only have it twice a week here but I could go when it is on next, it does seem to help at least a little. Next meeting is on Tuesday so if I go I will likely drink until Monday. Somehow going there does make me stop even if just for the night. Sometimes one night of the right choices puts me back on track for a while too.

I am lucky to have a good T who I see as often as needed which sometimes is 2 to 4 weeks but right now it is every week so I have that plus AA if I choose to go.