Hey Miss Laura, I hope you don't close your account I think I read all the posts in your thread and I think people were coming from a place of concern. I sometimes feel people (in other forums) have been having a go at me, and in fact they were. Sometimes people are just mean. But I don't think anyone here was mean. I know it hurts when people see things we don't see in ourselves, (like ''lack of insight'' for example, but there isn't any ''shame'' in that, it can be a symptom of bipolar sometimes)..I can understand hiding things from the treatment team, I do... but only because I have found them punitive and actually wrong (maybe I sound ''paranoid'' but I am not..) I hope this helps or at least doesn't make things worse. I think those of us who have been here a long time deserve a lot of respect (as does everyone)… Frankly, the (few) times people have been mean to me they were usually ''new'' members (or just random trolls) who were trying to cause hurt imo. Not here on the bipolar forum. I hope I haven't spoken ''out of turn'' - occasionally I too can be impulsive, and when I am, it usually bites me in the butt