Long story short, my mom died 5 years ago , was very sick , always was woke up in the night cause she was In a nursing home saying she was going to the hospital, my sister was horrible to me, mental and physical, basically was sexually abused by someone I barely knew and haven't dealt with it I guess or come to terms it all happens. My boyfriend just had major surgery, was very sick now in fear of him dying too. I try to fall asleep but panic in my sleep, I haven't had a good night's sleep since the end of 2017. My lack of sleep is effecting my relationship with my boyfriend, dad everything. I feel like I'm loseing my sanity. Just needing some kind words .thanks