I am so sorry things are being so hard for you, @Peter A! It seems like things are being REALLY difficult for you. Please hang in there. I am sure things will get better. Things WILL improve at some point if you just keep trying your best. We are here if you need to talk. You can also PM me ANYTIME! I am so sorry you don't have a lot of support right now! Keep fighting and keep rocking! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Peter A, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!