I have done this for many years, but I am working hard on growing out of it as a coping mechanism. Im very ashamed of the marks I have made. At the same time, when it gets bad in my head, when the memories come, I know that self-harming would make it stop. I could be peaceful and not hurt.

I am mostly focusing on trying other ways to get through the feelings. I try to take care of myself--manicures, pedicures that I give myself to take up lots of time and energy. I draw and write in my journal a lot. I meditate. Nothing is "as good" as the self-harm, but a combination of things can get close.