I lost my stepdad 9 years ago to him drinking alcohol and taking oxycodone together. It was totally unexpected. We knew he was an alcoholic and had an addictive personality. We didn't know he had started taking pills. I'm mentally challenged and lived with my mom and him. After he passed we realized signs we missed. Anyway he played the electric guitar(extremely talented) and anytime I hear music I think of him. I still get sad when I hear music he used to play. I talk about him all the time still. My new stepdad is really understanding, but I feel bad. I think part of the problem is he said more than once that no one would care if he died and we would forget him. I have problems mentally so I feel as if I have to constantly talk about him or I'll forget. Even though it's not true. I know I could never forget him and will always miss him.