TaintedGoth, Doh, StarPonys,

I appreciate your hearts& your thoughts.....they are very kind. It's ok if you want to list your struggles here...honestly....that wouldn't be hijacking...it would be sharing & sometimes that helps both.

The call went in to the plumbing company & they had no one to help, so they called the home warrantee company....they never called me back....I didn't want to seem too pushy, but called back at the end of the day. They called another plumbing company who was supposed to call me this morning......well, it was 10:30 when I finally got my energy going & I called them immediately. They didn't have an opening today so will come out on Monday.....what's a few more days of water damage????

So I decided that I was going to just go to the Extension office. They were having a meeting for the community to discuss all the programs they have going on. They have 3 different people who have positions there & cover the different aspects of the community. It was really exciting. The 4-H has many things going on that I wouldn't mind volunterring time to work with the leaders......I don't want to take on the responsiblity of being a leader especialy in a new community that I don't know well, but they need help with horsey things & also with doggie training things (those are some of the things I have experience with).

They have a wonderful community person who works with the concerns of the elderly & other people in need. I talked to her about the situation I had with the home care person who abused my Mother when she was dying of cancer & offered that if there was any way I could be of help is providing help with those dealing with these kinds of issues, I would love to help since is hits deeply in my heart & emotions. She is planning on putting together a meeting & wants people who have had experiences to present them......so I will feel I am doing something for the community. It was an exciting time & then she showed me around their beautiful new building that was just finished.

California doesn't have extension offices that are that obvious if they exist at all. The only time I had heard of the extension offices was with my Dad's family in Nebraska who were aways involved with their extension groups. I had no idea how many community things are tied to the extension office. Our Mercer county wants to carry the refurbishing of the old tobacco barns & add them to the quilting trail historical movement in other parts of Kentucky.....I just love having a community to be involved in.....it just gives one a warm tummy feeling when everyone at the meetings are so open to including you in on things & there are so many fun things to work on.

I am having them come out to my farm & do a soil test so I can figure out what to plant in my pasture for grazing. Right now, we have many strange things growing in the fields....this purple stuff that no one has even seen before. It has something to do with the drought we had....other stuff died out & this stuff was left to come out from nowhere.

Everything has started growing & getting overgrown right now....I have to get my lawn tractor out & start cutting everything before it gets too overgrown.....I love yard work & am hoping that once I get everything organized here, I will be able to start a real garden. They have a community farmers market & it would be fun to grow a garden & be part of that...bring in some extra money......if I'm not spending it all on keeping the critters away & on watering.

I take the time when I can't do anything about my problems & get familiar with my new home....heaven knows, there is enough to do around the house, & the community has so much more going on than I ever dreamed.

To think, my husband couldn't imagine being interested in anything here.....nor sure what his logic was....but I had said to open your mind & not come with a closed mind so you can see every opportunity......there may even be ways to earn a little extra money over the disability when one comes with an open mind, saying they can do anything they want to or find interesting........I feel like a kid in a toy store for the first time in their life. With beauty of each season showing itself all around me & new opportunities showing up all around me with everything being new.

It doesn't mean that the frustrations aren't here & I really do need a break!!!!! or maybe I should say I NEED THINGS TO QUIT BREAKING!!!!! I would love for the everyday things to quit being such a struggle to get through.....but maybe God is trying to make me a stronger person......really, I think I am strong enough for just a little while anyway...just long enough to catch my breath & catch up on my money!!!!!! I have this conversation with God quite often lately.......but I'm sure the reasons are there....like I said....to make me that stronger person I have to be to take care of myself by myself. I will never believe that he's trying to tell me that I need help because my helper never could help me with these kind of things. If he didn't have money to hire things to be fixed, they never got fixed.....Me......if I can fix it myself....I will do it myself & I can do it myself.....just not this huge water problem.

At least I remembered I had the home warrentee to cover it as much as they will cover.

I am relaxing also....now that I have my laptop working again, I have been playing my DVD's & watching movies while laying on my air mattress on the floor in the spare bedroom. I just don't have the evergy yet to dive into the painting & woodwork & the insullation around the windows & the lawn mowing & the cutting back & cleaning up the dead wood & putting weed killer on the grass that's growing where I don't want it.....but that will all come in time too......A few more days of taking a break & I should have the energy to start doing the things I didn't have time to do with all the paperwork issues that were dumped on my. Now is the time to spend on my farm....all for me.

Debbie