What does it feel like to not be depressed? I can't remember. I find that I spend all my time doing things to escape or distract myself from noticing that I'm depressed - doing anything and everything to just not have to sit quietly with myself. But I don't see this as healing. Its so tiring to try to spend all my time avoiding my basic core.

When a happy person lays down their head at the end of the day, and its dark and quiet and they're only with their thoughts, what is it like?