I wrote hear a mean email, when she had told me, that I was not important for her life, which was the most mean thing, that was ever said to me. And it hurt me even more to receive this from the person, that I saw to be the most important in my life. I don't see a reason for her to get a restraining order because shortly after my mean emails we both lived in different countries. After seven years I wrote only some nice emails like a birthday wish and expressing how much I was attracted to her from the very beginning. She accused me of following her, as I wanted to spend with her as much time as possible, because I really enjoyed that time even if we just talked empty talk for hours. Her voice was like a voice of a Siren to me. She also gave me mixed information about what she felt towards me.