Hi and thanks for this. We were school-mates and for some time we were also living in the same house. We also went to same parties. I said once to her that I want to be her friend hoping that that would evolve into something better, but she replied that that wasn't possible. I asked her why. She said that because I was forcing her to be friends. I thought that I wasn't clear enough with my intentions so then I wrote her a message saying that I wish to be her husband. I checked her facebook a few hours later and saw the post of her saying "Aaaaaa! I found my mobile phone and got a charm from someone. " So, I mean, it seems clearly that it was not everything in my mind. I would like to take my part of responsibility but I deny that everything is my responsibility and that she is perfect and pure. It also doesn't help my situation to think that she is perfect, innocent and pure. It leads to obsession. I acknowledge her fears. It seems that she was very afraid of me. But before deleting her email account she wrote to me that she had another email account, so by writing me that she made it look like it wasn't a big deal to her. She seemed very strong and determined. There were more people who fell in love with her, but they eventually found her to be too annoying. I was the most persistent one, so that even her female friends started rooting for me, as I almost decided to quit pursuing her. I tried to move on but we were still schoolmates and I had to still see her at school. I was in very difficult situation, feeling trapped as she was the loudest one in class.