Well, there have been tons of changes and I just wanted you all to know that I am not feeling so SU right now.
My BF just left me, but that is a whole other story (in depression section). I am dealing with it rather well.
One thing I think I failed to mention is that I am bipolar/PTSD/DID so there are many factors contributing to my wanting to just escape.
I really appreciate all of the input you have provided me.
I have talked with T and although I didn't tell her how I was feeling I talked about my sister and how it felt to have her in the hospital.
It sort of put things into perspective for me. I don't want to worry my family. I don't want them to constantly think that they need to do something or say something or call me to make sure I'm ok.
I am trying REALLY hard to just go to T and work on ME.

BJ