I went to my pdoc and talked to her about temporary disability. She said if she writes me out, I need to do a program and have all my meds changed. That scares me. I work in a mental health setting and have worked in others in the past, and I am afraid I would see people I know there. I am really scared of med changes though. I feel I've been through a lot of med changes, the side effects always scare me, and I've had some bad experiences that make me want to just give up. When she said "change all my meds", it triggered me, as there's certain medication I'll refuse to take due to extreme side effects listed.

The other option would be going to therapy more consistently, since I admit I haven't been as consistent due to me feeling I need a therapist who is a better fit. If I go to therapy once a week, it isn't enough for her to write me out. Another option would be for me to just quit my job, take a break and deal with temporarily not having the income, and then look for another job when I am stable again. Or I can just look for another job while I'm working, although that is an extremely stressful choice. I think I'm going to find a therapist and start there first.

I can tell my pdoc feels she has exhausted a lot of options as far as certain meds go. Have you gone through frustration about many med trials either failing or no longer working? Some meds of mine, I've had success with, but they stop working. Just wondering if anyone can relate, since I need a lot of support right now.