Something I realized is I might not have a secure attachment in relationships. I don't take it out on others, or have unstable relationships. However, I have difficulty with trust and other things in my relationships. I am pretty guarded and feel anxious. I don't really worry about abandonment or anything I don't think, though. It's sort of a complicated mix of things and I realized I relate a bit to the fearful attachment style. I don't feel like my childhood was so bad that I should have developed this, but it seems to fit. I do think I am scared of being in a relationship like my parents had. I thought this was interesting to learn about and wanted to share a link for anyone who's interested. I don't know much about the site where it's posted, but looked like a decent summary.

https://www.mindfulnessmuse.com/indi...-relationships