I've been in a private relationship with this guy for almost four years until I decided to call it off since it is against all odds and he is getting married soon.

Fast forward, I met this guy who kinda reminds me of my ex who I have loved for so long. After a week I said yes, but now I want to take it back since I know for a fact that I am only using him to be happy. I apologize but he wouldn't want to let go of me. All I am asking him is for some time for myself to heal but he told me that its a bull and I am only trying to get back with my ex.

I don't know what to do, I know that I should blame myself for everything happened so fast that I can't even take it back because he doesn't want to. He keeps on telling me to love him back that I find it suffocating.

Please help me out its been days of no proper sleep and I can't even function well at work which is bad as I may lose my job.