Saw my mom tonight. She asked why I'm not studying for college testing. I played it off as laziness, Not that I'm struggling. I don't feel I'm really struggling because mood wise I'm okay. We went on a walk and talked so there was less distractions. They really want me to get my degree and become a working member of society. My reality and their's are so different. Maybe I'm not trying hard enough? I know I can study for tests and pass them but I kinda have to understand English for a prolong time to really get it and pass. Even If I do get a degree. Then what? I can't even be alone for a full day. let alone out.