Just about finished work, day 6 then i have 3 off which I am not excited about. I spent all my last days off just laying in bed, I am not so depressed anymore though so Im not sure how I will do now. I made a schedule for tomorrow which I will try to follow, I am not very good with organization.
Tonight will likely be my last night drinking alcohol if I can stick to my plan of quitting when I run out. I feel very anxious about it even though I still get to drink tonight. I hope I can do it. Tomorrow is family day here, I think it would be nice to quit for family day. My family is so important to me and I know my drinking hurts them.
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Bipolar 1
Borderline Personality Disorder
Alcohol Use Disorder
Meds:
Depakote
Welbutrin
Abilify
I didn't want any flowers, I only wanted
to lie with my hands turned up and be
utterly empty. How free it is,
you have no idea how free.
- Sylvia Plath
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