I am so sorry things are being so hard for you, @passivezero! I COMPLETELY AGREE with ALL the other WISE and WONDERFUL posters. Definitely talk to your Husband first about ALL of this and make him understand what you mean. Hopefully He'll understand! I'd also suggest to consider Couple Counselling before considergin Divorce. However, if you feel like you've already made up your mind, then yes, definitely talk to your Husband about ALL of this! Are you seeing a Therapist? Perhaps that may be of some help as well! In any case, I am wishing the Best of Luck to BOTH you and ALL of your Family! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @passivezero, your Family, your Friends, your Husband, your Son, your Therapists, your Doctors, your Nurses, your Social Workers, your Relatives and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!