it's hard for some to feel forgiveness because you stole cash from the organization. you removed it without permission. he took it and then you approved it. how long was the cash gone before it was payment was made? does the organization know? I would think that true forgiveness would not or could not begin until true honesty begins.

it is good you acknowledge your wrongdoings. here in an anonymous forum, does the organization know? I would think that whatever level of trust they had in you would be pretty diminished. hope that they do not file criminal charges on you.

I guess I’m looking for forgiveness for my actions and to find a way to move on without obsessing about my actions and these debilitating shameful feelings.

you and your husband have some deep thinking to do regarding your actions. seriously.