My father is an alcoholic and has been so for as long as I can remember. I’m still in contact with him I feel that our relationship is better now. My mother was physically and emotionally abusive towards me when I was younger, she has had many relationships over the course of my childhood all ending on a bad note but now she has a boyfriend which she’s been with for 4 years but I don’t get on with him. I feel like she choose him instead of me or maybe he was a rebound after I stopped having any contact with her.
We talk sometimes but I don’t understand why do I still care/love her after all the hell she’d put me through I keep remembering the good times we had together but it just hurts even more. I still have resentment towards her but I feel sorry for her because she was abused when she was younger and she had a lot of stuff to deal with and now she has also lost me