Ah, you are beautiful!

Ooh, that's tough with a sister and a mum who are also seeing things in that way. A kind of awful, mass-delusion...

I was lucky in that I had a couple of encounters which showed me that the rest of the world didn't necessarily agree with me about skinniness being everything.

It's almost impossible to grasp, when one is on that side of the looking-glass.

One time, I happened across some porn by a male friend I really liked. Was I starving myself at the time, in order to be perfect / irresistible / not scared of taking off my clothes in front of him, if something did develop? Probably.

The porn was of larger women!

It's almost funny!

Honestly, though, it did shock me. I felt invulnerable in my tiny clothes. As if I had removed everything from my body that could possibly be criticised!

And, he didn't fancy me!

Big hugs.