I am in a long term relationship with someone that I cannot talk to when it comes to anything of significance in terms of how I feel, good or bad. There is a conversation we need to have but I literally cannot speak whenever the opportunity arises. I can think of the words in my head when he’s not around but as soon as I’m face to face with him my mind goes blank, almost like a heavy cloud in my head and chest. I cannot say anything and when I try I say something so dumb it only makes him mad. Today I drove around for a half hour then sat in my car for fifteen minutes to avoid contact and when I got inside and thought I might be able to at least say “Can we talk” I couldn’t even get that out. I have shared this with him but he doesn’t believe me and thinks I’m trying to hide something. What is this?