There are people I love, even some that might not deserve it. But, I don't feel "in love" and it hurts. It's an emptiness, a longing. There is someone who says she loves me romantically, and I've made it clear that I don't feel that way and she's still ok with that. I feel bad that I don't feel the way she wants. I feel guilty and angry with myself for not feeling love in return. But, it is as it is.
Perhaps I should do better, but this is where I am right now. I often feel lonely in a room full of people I know.
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