<font color="pink"> Lost Dagger for good this time. While I wasi n the institution She called and said she never wanted to see or speak to me again. So hard now, going to school...I see her. It hurts and it's hard to keep myself from going over to her and talking like everythings all normal again. It's my fault though...cuz...I drove her away. She tried so hard for me...and gave me alot of things. But...I broke to many of her boundaries...so now she's gone.... One of my closest friends...gone now. It's hard to live without her by my side, because I'm so attached...she referred to me in her journal as a leech who doesn't let off people...she was so much like I am now...yeah...I lost my best friend....so much history between us, even throyugh that short period of time I knew her. I cried for along long time. My memory keeps getting worst....and I can't do my school work. Blew off class the entire week, now I have to play catch up...all my fault....supposed to see therapist on the 24th...it hurts....and ...it's all my fault - _ - beaten, and institution, then that...and hey...if I'm complaining...just tell me to shuttup - _ -....

~I'm lost and feeling alone...~ </font>