Hi everyone.

I'm sad, very depressed. I've hit my all-time low. I made it a new years goal to combat my depression. I have not been too successful. . I did really well on an exam last week (got an A-) and had an exam yesterday...Didn't do too well and it dropped my average. I feel so defeated. I feel so low that I want to give up. I don't feel like I will make it anywhere. I feel like I'm drowning in the ocean, watching everything else around me disappearing. I don't know what to do. I don't feel as though I know who I am anymore. I don't have a good support system...I just feel incredibly alone. Wondering how everyone else does it because I try so hard...It's so hard to have a good day I get so jealous of people outside smiling and laughing, getting married, having kids, etc...While I just watch. I hope some can relate because I feel so alone