Thank you everyone who responded and those who may not have but are thinking good thoughts for me. I really appreciate it. It's times like this when I really need some (divine) intervention in life. I have a psychiatrist appointment next week and I'm going to be sure to express this to him. He may or may not have a working plan for me or medicine to to help, but at least I know I've exhausted my options. I'm scared to be honest. I spend everyday in a state of panic and fear and dread and I have to brace myself to the next day of the same. The only rest I really get is when I fall asleep. I'm sleeping so early because it takes so much out of me to be in a constant state of high stress and anxiety, and I think it's common after rushes of adrenaline. Anyway, I'm all out of options here. I'm doing the best I can and my best just doesn't seem good enough. The only thing I can do is bear through and suffer until it causes me to lose my job and the little social life I have. I just don't see the need to suffer like this. Just to keep it clear, I am not suicidal nor wanting to hurt myself -- I'm just worn out.