Sounds like Dad has some serious issues going on himself TGoth.

I'm sorry your feeling down about this....I can relate my parents

were never meant to be parents. I'm sorry your dads laughing

about this....it must be terribly painful. I've had a lifetime of

hate/love with my parents and unfortunately sometimes its all

we know. We don't realise the wonderful genuine people we really

are so we gravate towards others like them!!!

Its not your fault though, keep telling yourself that over & over

abusers make you feel like its your fault....its sad but true.

Hang in there TGoth.....