Maybe I need to close my cave door to everyone who is not on my friends list (here and elsewhere)… that would mean I also could not message them. I don't mean put anyone on ''ignore''.... just so that I never ever let my snake send anything to anyone if I am triggered.

Feel free to ignore this. or not respond I mean. i'm not having a good day, I wish I had some ''meds'' but I can't go down that route especially right now. I am ''safe''.... I'm sorry about all the posts. A couple of things have happened today which I wasn't expecting so I have to implement even more ''coping'' mechanisms.... and the professionals did not help me with this, they did not offer me ideas I do not think that if I phoned a ''crisis'' line they would help but its ok I can deal with it, I am actually used to ''getting by''.... I just wish I could thrive instead of just survive

I'm sorry about the rant/whine

respect to all