I understand this. I've found myself drawn (fascinated?) at times to the friction that can exist between me and Dr. T. Partly because we can both sling things at each other, and I'm not typically in relationships like that. In some ways, I feel this is what my teen years with my parents *should* have been like (rather than my mom crying if I talked back to her and saying that she thought we were close, so it didn't feel OK to "rebel"). Also the fact that Dr. T has said we can work through anything that comes up, that he isn't going anywhere (and took me back without question when I terminated for a bit) that sort of echoes what a safe, rebellious relationship with parents could have been like (as opposed to, say, a volatile romantic relationship or friendship).

Not sure how much sense any of this makes...

ETA: All that being said, your T still shouldn't have sworn at you.