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Originally Posted by Tryingtobehappy5
Hey Birddancer, I forced myself to go last night. We have it only Tuesday and Friday here. Today I have considered over and over if I should give in and go to the liquor store. Last night was very bad for me, AA did calm me down a bit but the hopelessness did not lessen like it usually does when I go. That was dissapointing. I normally end up feeling like I want to keep trying and like I can handle it afterwards but this time I just felt defeated like they all had what I wanted but would never have. Anyways they tried being supportive but I am really not doing well and it just didnt help. Thank you for your encouragement though, I will do my best to focus on those brief moments where I feel like I can manage this.
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Maybe make that trip to the store hard on yourself. Put your keys in one place. Put your wallet in another. Write a note that says I'm not going to the store and put it on your review mirror and another on your door. Make your house an obstacle course you have to pass through in order to go. Each obstacle is a physical reminder that you want to make a change today.
Reward yourself every time you make a good decision. A small sweet treat. A warm bath. Some cozy socks. Play a game online. Order yourself something nice. Buy a new book to read. Listen to a favorite song. Whatever.