It sounds like you may be addicted to the drama of the relationship and acting out your emotions as a way to avoid looking at what's underneath them. unfortunately it seems that your t is more than contributing to this dynamic by being excessively emotional. To be honest swearing at you and crying uncontrollably is not professional and her behaving that way is not going to help you heal. I completely understand how addictive these kind of scenarios can be because it was like that with my ex-husband but ultimately it's likely going to be quite damaging unless your t dramatically starts working on herself and and focusing on what you need.