Today while I was trying to give my cat his medicine, I got angry. I took my frustration out on my cat with a can of "Stop That!" He doesn't like the sound it makes. He hissed at me. But part of me was hoping the scent it emits would calm him and make him stop running from me. It's supposed to sooth cats. It's just that the sounds is harsh. But I was angry and I didn't care if I pissed him off.

I feel so bad now for getting angry at him. I'm beating myself up. I'm calling myself all kinds of terrible names and I'm thinking he would be better off with someone else. Maybe he needs to live with someone who has a farm. Maybe he will be happier as an outdoor cat. He's always so miserable and med time is never pleasant.