Still feeling like absolute ****. I managed to drag myself to work and make it through the day but I fell asleep as soon as I got home. An hour later I woke up with debilitating sinus pain/pressure. I took more Advil and Sudafed. It is just now kicking in, three hours and one hot shower later. I really hope this lets up soon.

I got in minor trouble at work today. My supervisor called me in and said she heard me “yelling” at my student. I was genuinely confused because I don’t remember yelling at him at all. I think I was quite patient with him after all he put me through today. So I’m not upset, just confused. I said to her that if she has any ideas on how I can respond to him, please (for the love of god) help me. I am completely out of my element with him. He is severely mentally ill, as well as on the autism spectrum. He comes in angry and it just escalates from there. Today he continually threw himself against a locked glass door, causing to bounce open at the bottom from the force of it. What if he hits it so hard he goes through the door? He could be seriously injured. I am not strong enough to restrain him myself. I have no Walkie to call for assistance. It’s a dangerous situation. My classroom team and I have decided that I should not be left alone with him when he is in such a state and that we will immediately call for assistance over the intercom or class walkie. I may have indeed yelled at him just so he could hear me over his screaming. I really don’t know.

I just want this monster of a cold to be gone so I can function again and be better at my job.