Oh Bizi
I don’t think it’s sad your wishing your cat would die, I’m sorry Jeff can’t understand that letting her go is one of the best gifts as a fur baby owner we have to give.
Good grief you have a whole bunch of sick in your family
The medication combo I was on for almost 1.5 years ( yes I quit a year ago March ) was the best combo I had found in , well , hell , years.
Latuda 60mg
Lamictal XR 300 mg
Doxipen 50-100 mg at night
Tenex 2mg at night
Xanax 1 mg up to 3 a day but mostly once at night.
I didn’t have any bad side effects, my inability to loss weight due to metabolic syndrome , I had hopef would reverse , but obviously not. But I also was on lots of medications for physical problems. So part of me also just felt strongly that my body just had far too many meds a day.
The above combo allowed me to feel things ... stable I guess , I wasn’t just snowed under it, at times I felt a bit depressed but not that soul sucking depression. Some moods up or down had a situational component, but sometimes I’d go to bed ok and wake up feeling a bone deep exhausting depression or I’d wake up hypo, so I’d have to adjust my coping skills. Increase self care.. kind of push myself to do everything opposite of what my body wanted to ... I want to stay in bed !!! No! Your going to get up make the bed and get in the shower. I want to stay up all night because I like being an night owl , ok to a degree but I must force myself to lay down and at least rest my body, dammit I want to get up ! No ! Another hour or two.
A few times I was going up and up and I’d take Seroquel XR for a few days, it would tamp that down enough for me to not lose control.
I feel a version of depression daily even while hypo actually , but chronic ongoing pain is just a freaking downer.
So sometimes I have to sit and pick apart how I’m feeling to get to the bottom of it ........ Bipolar ? Or Situational something and I have every right to feel X
And sometimes I have absolutely no freaking idea so I tend to fall into my favorite book series.
I hope you can find help to hold you over until tegratol has a chance to hit therapeutic level
