During the day I am ok, but at night I just lose it. I get super depressed since my boyfriend left.
I can't sleep in our bed because I want to reach over and cuddle with him, but he isn't there. I want him to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be ok. I just want him to hold me. I am so incredibly lonely.
I have talked to him and I know that one day we will be together again if it is meant to be, but right now I am miserable. We both agree that we need to work on ourselves, but I am having a hard time doing that. With him in California and me in Idaho I don't know when I will get to see him again.
I just don't want to wake up in the morning, ya know?
I am watching something funny, but I can't even laugh at it because I am too distracted by my sadness. I have been crying so hard that I can't even breathe.

Don't need any response or anything, I just really wanted to vent some.

BJ