Really trying to get off smoking. Tried to quit cold turkey but came to the conclusion that was going to be a no go coming off a pack a day habit. So for this week I'm down to 6-8 cigarettes a day. That's a whole lot better than 20+. And I switched from full flavored to ultra lights. I'll just keep dwindling them down.

Yesterday was rough. I ended up taking the day off work, which I rarely do.Nicotine withdrawal hit me hard, I had major muscle aches and fatigue. And I had a total mental breakdown as I was about to leave for work. Balled my eyes out for a half hour. Was having female issues too, so I went and saw my PCP yesterday. While I was at my PCP, I scheduled for a physical. That will make my pdoc happy. He's been wanting me to do that.

Also had a good conversation with my mom about a bunch of stuff yesterday. She's been so supportive this week.

Today is upward and onward. It's been a difficult week for me. Still waiting on biopsy results. Looking forward to going to work this morning. Feeling loads better this morning.