I am so sorry, @NeedHelp104! I can REALLY relate! You're not alone. I COMPLETELY agree with ALL the other wise and wonderful posters about you joining some Depression Support Groups. They are pretty much similar to this WONDERFUL Forum, but they are In Real Life of course! This Forums is In Real life as well of course but unfortunately we can't meet each other face to face! Depression Support Groups' people do, however, so that may help you feel less alone! Of course we are here for you! Keep us updated on how things are going for you of course! Yes, definitely consider seeing a Therapist or a Pdoc as well! Please do always remember that you're NEVER alone! We are here for you! Please do feel free to PM me or any other people you want to talk to or vent to of course! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @NeedHelp104, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!