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Originally Posted by Wander
Possible Trigger - SI
University begins in five days. The Fibromyalgia/Chronic Fatigue is getting worse, and my hip is still causing major issues. Despair is flooding in. I don't know if I will cope with the load, and if I can't I don't know if I can cope with the loss. I am not depressed, but still very suicidal. No one can help me or fix this. All I can do is wait and see what unfolds. I'm scared I won't make it. Sorry to be so down. I have tried so hard to stay positive. Living a life so limited physically and mentally(cognitive) is not one I want to live. This has to improve ASAP.
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Do you have an action plan written out? Is there an emergency number to call at your pdoc's? As much as your brain is telling you not to I think you should reach out to those whose job it is to help you. You won't always feel this way. I call this "brain bad" when i get SI. I also try to distract my brain- read or watch Netflix or call a friend. It usually works- only once did I ever get hospitalized. I'll skip the details of that.
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