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Old Feb 20, 2020, 01:56 PM
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Originally Posted by Wander View Post
Possible Trigger - SI

University begins in five days. The Fibromyalgia/Chronic Fatigue is getting worse, and my hip is still causing major issues. Despair is flooding in. I don't know if I will cope with the load, and if I can't I don't know if I can cope with the loss. I am not depressed, but still very suicidal. No one can help me or fix this. All I can do is wait and see what unfolds. I'm scared I won't make it. Sorry to be so down. I have tried so hard to stay positive. Living a life so limited physically and mentally(cognitive) is not one I want to live. This has to improve ASAP.
I am so sorry you are struggling with all this, Wander. I have been there with the SI stuff. It was so bad when I joined PC, I really thought I would not survive. But I did. And you can, too. Don't give up!! Maybe there is a change that can be made to help with your depression med-wise?

Sending you strength and support!!!! You can do this!!! Stay strong!!!!
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